Will this be the year? Probably not.
I haven’t done this in awhile. Today is the first Monday of the new year. 2022. I keep asking myself is this the year I finally get myself together and in what ways do I need to fix myself? I’m not talking the usual weight loss, fitness, drink more water things but in just being an overall better human. I know I have things to work on but at this point in my life how likely am I to change those things. It seems all I try to do is numb any feelings I have but it’s supposed to be okay to have feelings and to express them. I found that expressing mine was always frowned upon so I’ve learned to mostly keep them to myself. That’s all fine for awhile until the bottled up stuff starts to seep out like a poison cloud. I really don’t want to start this out negatively though. There are just so many things bothering me and so many things on my mind that I need to work out. What do I do with today though?